Lavender

I was spending hours of silence, resting every inch of fiber on my beloved, globular, orange chair.

For a second I thought, I was just sick of everything. How can I go through another inconsequential day in this life of mine? I do understand the clear fact that had been passed on by God to His prophets and messengers since countless of times ago, that we are all born to be somebody. To come in handy and useful in some sort of way someday, but that could not stop me from feeling rather trivial.

Day by day I ponder around with my thoughts, have I changed? After all these years of exposure and combat within the human race, have my character evolved into somewhat a souped up dignitary?

I tried to convince myself that I have. That I am better. That I am stronger. Powerful. Surpassing typicality. I have yet to feel very good about myself.

But yet, I still have not. Somehow, something is just not right. All the reassurance that I have done unto myself had all gone to waste.

Contaminated&disgusted. Exactly what I feel about myself right this very minute.

I'm just not special.

A V LATE HNY & HCNY

"Hello there, the angel from my nightmare"

First of all, I would like to congratulate all of ya'll who survived 2011. Really, a big round of applause to everyone, and yes, you guys are very strong people I must say.

I've been abandoning this blogspot for God knows how long (too lazy to count) but yes, I am back again! Always being late at updating things. It's just that I have nothing to write about.... Cause life is pretty boring lately. But but but it's now Chinese New Year so I was thinking to myself, why not write something? And so here I am.

*15 minutes later*

Uhh... clueless. Maybe I should just write about my new resolutions for this year. Wait not really. Not that new at all. Perhaps a bit dusty, had pretty much this very same resolutions last year.

1) Reduce uses of profanity and foul languages in daily life 

2) Be kind to others

3) Work harder to achieve new goals

4) Talk less, listen more

5) Strengthen my faith in God

6) Maintain great camaraderie with families and friends

7) Be more forgiving

8) Put priorities above all unnecessary things

9) Put myself first *

10) Change for the better

It was not put in any particular order so please don't have opinions on me. 

Let's see how I can make all of this work this year.