I can't

I really can't stay

(But baby it's cold out there)

I've got to go away

(But baby it's cold out there)

This evening has been... so very nice

(I'll hold your hand.. they're just like ice..)

Made you move

I made you move

I made you move

From the man you are

You made me move

You made me move

Run just to fall

For I'm not a woman

Not a woman

I'm just a ray of light

Fall fast or steep low

You made me move

I made you mine

I made you mine

Beside myself you're mine

You made me change

From the weak

Made me lose my chain

No longer woman

I'm not a woman

I'm just a ray of light

Fall fast or steep low

You made me move

You made me move

You made me move

You made me move

You made me move

You made me move

Love after marriage is so sweet. There's a possibility that I would agree to an arranged marriage.

(SHOCK-ER)

But girl u make it hard to be faithful......... with the lips of an angel.

A disgusting song about infidelity that I like. I hate myself for liking it but the song portrays how uncontrollable your emotions are. Principles are no longer applicable when it comes to these stuffs..

This song reminds me of somebody............& I'm still waiting for that car crash (that might / might not happen)

I will be old one day. I will be covered with wrinkles. I will look good in wrinkles.

Love was the only thing I ever needed, I ever needed.

I need God. I want God. I need more of Him. I need to feel His presence. I want Him closer to me. 

God, will I ever be forgiven?

Li Lykke Timotej Svensson Zachrisson

I need sushi right now.

& I have an undying love for Lykke Li. She's amazing. She's gorgeous. She's amazing. She's amazing. She's amazing. She's awkwardly amazing. 

Most of her songs are kinda dark. & some are cheerfully dark too. I can totally relate to her. The sound of the tribal drums in the background of most of her songs............... excites me.

I hate the fact that it's pretty impossible for me to catch her live. It's just sad. & depressing.

Cause she's one hell of a performer. 

Check her out. She's fucking hot.

Made you move - Lykke Li  LIVE (2011) Los Angeles Wiltern

"I'm your prostitute, & u gonna get some"

Get some - Lykke Li (Intimate show for WFNX)

She makes me high.

Things that I miss

Subhanallah :)

At the hotel lobby

Pretty boy Isaac Dhani

Unprepared. Haha

Now that's better

Morning swim w Kimmy

Rumah Terbalik

My sister looks funny there

Caught somebody pooping haha

Isaac on the left ; looks adorable :3

Leaving Novotel....

& moved to Karambunai Villa Resort 

Bella! Oh she ate some sand btw D;

Caught in the act of abusing Bella...

Clocks & watches

I will be furthering my studies v soon. I know time flies, but it's a shocker still of how fast it flew

My spm result was somewhat crappy for me, but no regrets tho. I wasn't trying hard enough. To pursue dentistry, I have no choice but to do extremely well for pre U. In God's will, I will.

I've decided to go for matriculation. & of course Sabahans & Sarawakians would be sent to LMC, the Labuan Matriculation College. Sure I've heard the grumblings & complaints about the condition there. 

To be honest, I just can't wait to get away from the people I know & meet new people. & just study. I'm sure it'll be hard for me to adjust myself there but I can't surrender without putting up a fight. I can't lose to mere setbacks.... 

Deep down, I am worried of how it will be like there. I was never far away from my parents.. I never really had to face any hardships on my own. Never even washed clothes w my own bare hands. Will I survive? (Lol how dramatic)

But it's true tho, I'm bloody scared to be on my own. I have to constantly remind myself not to give up & just look forward, & work my ass off to achieve my goals. LMC is where I would either make it. Or break it.

It's do, or die.

Lavender

I was spending hours of silence, resting every inch of fiber on my beloved, globular, orange chair.

For a second I thought, I was just sick of everything. How can I go through another inconsequential day in this life of mine? I do understand the clear fact that had been passed on by God to His prophets and messengers since countless of times ago, that we are all born to be somebody. To come in handy and useful in some sort of way someday, but that could not stop me from feeling rather trivial.

Day by day I ponder around with my thoughts, have I changed? After all these years of exposure and combat within the human race, have my character evolved into somewhat a souped up dignitary?

I tried to convince myself that I have. That I am better. That I am stronger. Powerful. Surpassing typicality. I have yet to feel very good about myself.

But yet, I still have not. Somehow, something is just not right. All the reassurance that I have done unto myself had all gone to waste.

Contaminated&disgusted. Exactly what I feel about myself right this very minute.

I'm just not special.

A V LATE HNY & HCNY

"Hello there, the angel from my nightmare"

First of all, I would like to congratulate all of ya'll who survived 2011. Really, a big round of applause to everyone, and yes, you guys are very strong people I must say.

I've been abandoning this blogspot for God knows how long (too lazy to count) but yes, I am back again! Always being late at updating things. It's just that I have nothing to write about.... Cause life is pretty boring lately. But but but it's now Chinese New Year so I was thinking to myself, why not write something? And so here I am.

*15 minutes later*

Uhh... clueless. Maybe I should just write about my new resolutions for this year. Wait not really. Not that new at all. Perhaps a bit dusty, had pretty much this very same resolutions last year.

1) Reduce uses of profanity and foul languages in daily life 

2) Be kind to others

3) Work harder to achieve new goals

4) Talk less, listen more

5) Strengthen my faith in God

6) Maintain great camaraderie with families and friends

7) Be more forgiving

8) Put priorities above all unnecessary things

9) Put myself first *

10) Change for the better

It was not put in any particular order so please don't have opinions on me. 

Let's see how I can make all of this work this year.