Things that I miss

Subhanallah :)

At the hotel lobby

Pretty boy Isaac Dhani

Unprepared. Haha

Now that's better

Morning swim w Kimmy

Rumah Terbalik

My sister looks funny there

Caught somebody pooping haha

Isaac on the left ; looks adorable :3

Leaving Novotel....

& moved to Karambunai Villa Resort 

Bella! Oh she ate some sand btw D;

Caught in the act of abusing Bella...

Clocks & watches

I will be furthering my studies v soon. I know time flies, but it's a shocker still of how fast it flew

My spm result was somewhat crappy for me, but no regrets tho. I wasn't trying hard enough. To pursue dentistry, I have no choice but to do extremely well for pre U. In God's will, I will.

I've decided to go for matriculation. & of course Sabahans & Sarawakians would be sent to LMC, the Labuan Matriculation College. Sure I've heard the grumblings & complaints about the condition there. 

To be honest, I just can't wait to get away from the people I know & meet new people. & just study. I'm sure it'll be hard for me to adjust myself there but I can't surrender without putting up a fight. I can't lose to mere setbacks.... 

Deep down, I am worried of how it will be like there. I was never far away from my parents.. I never really had to face any hardships on my own. Never even washed clothes w my own bare hands. Will I survive? (Lol how dramatic)

But it's true tho, I'm bloody scared to be on my own. I have to constantly remind myself not to give up & just look forward, & work my ass off to achieve my goals. LMC is where I would either make it. Or break it.

It's do, or die.

Lavender

I was spending hours of silence, resting every inch of fiber on my beloved, globular, orange chair.

For a second I thought, I was just sick of everything. How can I go through another inconsequential day in this life of mine? I do understand the clear fact that had been passed on by God to His prophets and messengers since countless of times ago, that we are all born to be somebody. To come in handy and useful in some sort of way someday, but that could not stop me from feeling rather trivial.

Day by day I ponder around with my thoughts, have I changed? After all these years of exposure and combat within the human race, have my character evolved into somewhat a souped up dignitary?

I tried to convince myself that I have. That I am better. That I am stronger. Powerful. Surpassing typicality. I have yet to feel very good about myself.

But yet, I still have not. Somehow, something is just not right. All the reassurance that I have done unto myself had all gone to waste.

Contaminated&disgusted. Exactly what I feel about myself right this very minute.

I'm just not special.